Thursday, April 15, 2021

 So the rewrite lasted for approximately one week. That is unfortunately the trajectory of my creative energy the past two months. I suppose I can't complain, at least I am writing something sometimes. But it's not the kind of production I was hoping for and definitely not the level that I am "supposed" to have. 

I have an immense amount of creative energy, a kind of busy feeling which I can't explain. This has been going on for nearly a year now, and while it is nice, it unfortunately has absolutely no determined outlet. I'd love to be able to sit down every single day and be in the mood to write 2k words in my novel, but that's unfortunately not how my mind works. 

People say you can force yourself to sit down and write every single day, but I'm not seeing success in that. I have tried sitting down for fifteen minutes in front of my document every day, undistracted. But I don't always have fifteen minutes of undistracted, free time when I feel I can actually write. 

Once I start writing, I write for hours usually. That is also unfortunate, but also nice. 

I guess these days everything is both nice and unfortunate. Welp. That's all I have to put here, I suppose. The rewrite will be delayed, my own novel has a fuzzy, unclear ending, I attempted to start writing two romance novels and couldn't get into writing them, and I haven't sat down to write fanfic in a while. I suppose that's the trajectory of my creative writing as a whole this year. 

Start one thing, start another.