Tourmaline

 He becomes warmth and the smell of 

Fireplace, wafting up the staircase, 

I used to wrap up in his sweater 

When the winters got too cold

Now I wrap him in the air

The heat, the silence; whatever I can give

To say thank you like a prayer

And I stake a fence around him until

I am a post, quiet and still

Cold in the frozen night, a sentry outside

His bedroom window, 

I want to be your peace and I'm sorry

Because I am not a fencepost

I am not a bookcase

I am a woman

Blood running dark with deep desires

Cold in my fingertips and 

Visions of tourmaline eyes

Let not the stars bear witness

My criminality is my own sentence 

To serve, I am 

Want and need and nostalgia's 

Favorite haunt, a guileless fiend. 

Got very inspired by the Macbeth line and went at it. 

Orange Lights

Chypre church pews
And celery seeds,
Little boy on the hill
Rolling in the grass,
You grab my hand
In the smoke of caps,
Slam on the hardwood

Till it's permanently scratched, 
Orange light posts
Breathe in the night,
You'll be the death of me,
You'll cut like a knife.

Sa'yo

Oh my love,
Why did you break me
Into thousands of pieces?
We are telenovela dreams
Kissing and crying and
I just want you to
Hold me and stop screaming,
Tell me all these hurts and fights
Were but a nightmare
And the real you is waiting
Under Manila streetlights
With dozens of roses and
A bottle of red wine,
The moon over your mother's
Home sears silver sadness
Into my sunburned skin
The waves rock and starlight
Caresses their crests
Like your hands brushed my
Bare and pale chest,
Now you shove me away
Your dark eyes burn with hate
I am locked from the place
I believed to be my escape,
When the darkness breaks
I will go, pinakamamahal ko,
I think I would have
Loved you until
It killed me.

Fourth of July

You stood tall in all black
Mourning among the
Fireflies, the girl we
Both loved behind our eyes,
Plummet down the
Gravel road and into your
Open wounds, I wanted to
Kiss you silly until
Every tear stain was rinsed clean
Lying in the bathroom
Phone pressed so tight only
you would listen,
Would you blame me for
Being jealous of the heartbeat
I could hear yet
Never possess?
I've watched you since forever
Did I not invest?